The Straw

After a childhood of body issues and 13 years of marriage and two beautiful children I finally tipped the scales at a whopping 250 lbs.. Disgusting I know.... But being happy with my husband and growing two humans and me getting to the point where I no longer gave a fuck what anyone thought of me I just didn't care anymore. I honestly felt beautiful and was content with what and who I was. I had broken through the chains that confined me which were masked as other peoples opinions. They say opinions are like assholes; well that's true in more ways than one. Lol!!!  

My husband has saved me.. Saved me from myself... He has made me believe I am beautiful every day for 13 years. He has given me the self esteem I so desperately needed. He loves me unconditionally, every single aspect of me. He has shown me that everything I was ever told about men and what they want in a woman is just not true. 

As loved as I am and as confident as I am, the straw that broke the camels back was a visit to my doctor in the fall of 2011. I was 238 lbs and had high blood pressure, high cholesterol, joint pain and planters faciitis.. At only 34 that was a problem... My daddy died in June of 2009 way to early.. He was only 63 and had high BP, Cholesterol, diabetes, Congestive Heart Failure, Coronary Artery Disease  and had a heart attack (one of many) that would be his last... 

I felt jipped, robbed I my father and pissed at him for not taking care of himself knowing I needed him; we all needed him. I thought how selfish he was and was extremely sad and angry...That was the straw that broke the camels back...

I needed to loose weigh and a lot of it. All the hundreds of diets I had been on through the years were not working and I needed a long term tool that would help me get healthy. So I started looking into Weight Loss Surgery.