Day 4

I never realized how food is in such control of my head. Today is day 4 of my pre op diet (5 lbs down) and my first day at work while on thi diet. (Really tough to be around everyone else and drunk nothing but protien shakes, jello and soup) it was a Monday so I was  super busy which helped keep my mind off food. But after work I had to go to the grocery store for soups and diet stuff. Driving there I passed the Carls Jr., the smell of flame broiled burgers was intoxicating.... Then I parked and could see the Little Cesar's dude dancing in the street with a sign that said "Hot & Ready"..... I just thought about those buttery crazy breads!!!  Then I go inside Rayles and I smell the Chineese Hot Wok and see the beautiful pastry sand fresh bake bread.... (This is gonna be hard I think to myself) but I walk past it all, stomach grumbling, head dizzy from lack of food.  I find some miso soup and some Dannon Light n Fit Greek Yogurt.  I also find some fresh asparagus...   I leave feeling like my glass is half empty... 

I just never realized what a big part food played in my life.. It's everywhere!!!! I can see it, smell it and feel it..  

Day 4 is almost over and as I sit her and eat plain broccoli and a protien shake I have to remember one thing. I LOVE MYSELF ENOUGH TO OBTAIN HEALTH!